So many words left unsaid and I'm not even sure how to form a complete sentence that would actually express my feelings. It's like my thoughts are slipping through my fingers escaping my grasp before I can pin them down with words.

I'm falling apart slowly but surely.

What am I doing here anymore.

I need an exit.

I am Jack's overwhelming sense of loss

I miss you, I miss what we had together. I miss the countless nights spent at your house. I miss you laying your head on me. I never felt more complete at that moment. I'm lonely and I don't know how to be happy with myself.

I miss you..

I am Jack's feeling of loss

I feel super lonely..

I am Jack's spark of hope.

I'm done investing time into this.
It's just wasted time.
I'm going to focus on myself, It's my time now. It's time to invest yourself and do what you need.

Step1. Enroll in school.
Step2. Kick ass in school.
Step3. Find an awesome job.
Step4. Life comfortable.

I am Jack's feeling of hopelessness.

Life has never been easy for me, It's been one thing after another. I thought I found some light at the end of the tunnel. That was not true though, only more hardships.
I'm so tired of getting dragged through my life on nothing but hardships and failures.
Life never gets easier, it never does.

I'm just so tired...

I am Jack's wasted life

I'm so tired of feeling like shit, quite blaming me. This is not all my fault, stop saying that things would be different if I didn't act this way. I didn't do anything wrong. I'm so tired of this.

I didn't even do anything but somehow this whole thing is my fault which justifies you treating me like shit.

I am Jack's raging bile duct

You put so much in and get nothing back in return. When it's all said and done you feel defeated. All the time and energy you invested was for nothing. After it's all said and over you feel as if a piece of you is gone.

I am alone now. Left to rot on the side of the road.